Language Camp was amazing. The people in Language camp became like a second family to me. We shared our past struggles and fears for the future. The topics in some conversations were uncomfortable ,but they brought us closer together. Personally, I struggled and still struggle with German ,so having people around that related felt very comforting and pleasant; we would laugh when the words that were too long and difficult to pronounce, even question at times if it was a real word.
Coming out of Language camp was one of toughest things. I remmember saying goodbye to my CBYX friends knowing that we would all have such a different year and that we will all be completly different people when we see each other again. I cried more than when I did when I left Puerto Rico and I was sooo nervous. I remmember when I first met my host family. They came to pick me up and they were enteing the room were a conference was being held for the host families. I panicked... One of the things I was most nervous for was the first time we would meet. I picked the dress they would see me in a week before and I took about an hour doing my makeup. But when I saw them my dress was not perfect and makeup had wash off because of all the crying. They looked at me and spoke in German. This was the moment I realized that I actually had to know the language. My face got red and my hands started to shake. I said hi, gave them a hug and said I would see them later. To this day I don't really know what they told me.
My final goodbyes were the toughest. My host family and I had lunch together with some of the other host family. When we were finished and I was signaled by my host family that we had to go I passed along the room to give the final goodbyes to my friends. I had no idea how I still had tears left in me, I hugged them as tightly as I could and was going to give one of my friend Lucas back his bracelet. He said no ,that I can give it to him in mid-year. In this moment I realized that I wasn't saying goodbye to my friends ,but more like a see you later.
The car ride with my host family was a bit awkward. I knew from the beginning of the program that I signed up for not only an amazing life changing expirince ,but also a series of uncomfortable moments with it. This was the first time I felt the language barrier when my family and I attempted to talk the converstion would stop becuase I couldn't understand or express myself adecuatly. They tried tho, my host family really tried to have a conversation with me and I appreciate it even till this day. We went to a town festival in the town and I had a good time with my host family eating and lisening to music.